More thinking
It’s the weekend so I feel like I can continue something from the previous day without annoying too many folks. The weekenders have a longer attention span and some have been around since that’s where I did the bulk of this crap. Anyway I was talking about assholes knowing if they are assholes and the more I thought about it the more I think they do.
I know exactly when I act in appropriately (crap was that supposed to be 2 words?) every single time. In fact I was just a flaming a-hole to my son in front of his friends to encourage all of them to stop being such spoiled dependent wussies. Independent thinking inspired by verbal abuse. Next time I’m driving away I’d bet there will be at least a second thought performed before they ask me to pull back in and find them a football.
Every single time my behavior climbs out of normal range I am aware. I’m not always claiming control either. Some days I have to double back and apologize if I left it in the red for too long or with someone who couldn’t handle that much me. My point is that I always know.
So maybe I need to be the voice that delivers the tough message. I’m getting ready to write the email where I will volunteer to do just that. Nothing confrontational or over the top just relating the facts that he is making enemies like it was his job and if needed for emphasis my desire yesterday to lash out.
I’d like someone to tell me after I crossed the street that I wasn’t paying attention to what I was doing and a bus almost hit me.

Yeah, but you are a smart asshole. Most assholes are imbeciles too.
yeah… that’s not gonna work out like you hope it will.